I'm not talking about my husband and/or kids, though sometimes relations with all of them can be a bit of a mine-field. No.
Once again, I am schmerzing about a sibling relationship that will just never be what it once was, no matter how much I believe that things could change for the better. It's over. It's done with. And if I don't let it be over and done with, and persist in holding on to this ridiculous hope of mine, I'm just going to keep getting hurt. Over and over and over again.
Stupid of me to let my guard down. Stupid of me to trust. I walked right into it face-first. Stupid, stupid, stupid!
But it did look like things were changing for the better, and I wanted so badly to believe it was true.
Time to rebuild the Wall, and hope to God it stays up this time.